Today is World Mental Health day & across social media and the news you will see and read so much about it which is good in my books as we don’t talk enough generally. It’s almost like we are embarrassed as a nation to discuss our mental health and wellbeing and see it as a sign of weakness but it is quite the opposite!
The irony is that we now spend so much time on our computers, phones (you’re reading this on one!) that we have almost forgotten how to talk to people, open up. We’re all confident chatting online yet when it comes to face to face many of us shy away. Social media can also have such a damaging effect on our mental health as well – everyone trying to be the best, have the best, online trolling, abuse that the very thing that can spread the word of mental health can also have such a damaging effect.
So it seems appropriate today that I should admit something. I myself suffer from terrible anxiety….have done for a while, but I am doing my best to try and control it. I literally worry about everything…get anxious and worried if someone hasn’t replied back to me on text….worry about how a conversation has gone in person or on the phone – did I say the right thing?……how was it received? I end up relaying that conversation over and over in my head. I get anxious and worried when I text my husband Mark & he doesn’t reply back for ages…..he is Type 1 Diabetic you see & I always start to worry that something has happened to him. When the truth is he is perfectly fine but just been in lessons teaching with no access to his phone. I get anxious and worried about things that haven’t even happened yet & as for flying – well my anxiety goes off the scale! 🤦🏼♀️ Social situations as well – recently I just can’t handle….my safe place is my home with Mark or with both of our families – I feel safe with them. I could go on as my list is endless.
When you think about it in the cold light of day, it seems so ridiculous really, I mean you can’t change what has happened or been said so why get so anxious and worried about things. I also can’t change what may happen in the future or how things will turn out – so again why I do I get myself in a state about stuff?! I really envy those people who are so chilled and laid back!
So there you go…I have terrible anxiety which does affect my mental health and sometimes gets me so down. I may seem like a happy, fun sort of person but behind closed doors can be so very different some days. It feels quite liberating to put it out there – only 2 people knew before – my husband Mark and my best friend Kathy, so if it helps one more person to realise they are not the only one then I will be happy.
Most importantly don’t suffer in silence, talk to someone about what is troubling you, don’t feel embarrassed and please don’t see it as a sign of weakness as it really isn’t – you are brave for opening up. If you see someone looking down or not themselves – just a quick “You ok” “Want to chat” could mean the world.